okay i had to say this before i sleep omg i am damn tired already okay but Hanisa is such an angel. okay she went along too yesterday and she was damn hot and S(who likes everyone in terms of sexual orientation, gender, whatever) go ga-ga over Hanisa and they even made out! the kissing scene was hot.
one of the main reasons why i always dont take the first move is because i am very screwed up mentally. like i would always think that those cute gays may think i'm not hot or good-looking enough so i'll get very insecure and paranoid so that restrained me ALOT. so guys always hook me up first or thats it. and i do regret like yesterday, there was this cute guy and he was buff and he was dancing so close to me we could actually grind each other but i was too insecure i didn't even look at his face when we danced i was like looking uninterested all the time :( AH FUCK.
so yeah, but Hanisa always go like omg dont be dumb you're hot yada yada yada i was actually not convinced. but she's said it so many times i think i'm a bit more convinced HAHA. like she sent this text and i thought it was sweet :
"Den let that stupid mentality go! Seriously you ARE hot and good-looking and fun and you're definitely attractive so stop being stupid seriously".
AWWW. i'm gonna keep this text for life and be motivated when i club. HAHA. okay, tonight, for the first time, i really hope i will make the first move. FedEx all your guts to me!
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