I'm overwhelmed with emotions. Alot of things have been happening recently, too much for me to handle. But, i'm taking it in my stride because i am too powerless to do anything anyway. I can't deny that life has been really cruel these days but i'm still holding on to my faith that there's always a blessing in disguise.
The humiliation and emotional turmoil i went through last few weeks were enough to break anyone. But, with Allah swt by my side, i made it through. Thank you Allah swt, without you, i'm nothing.
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Now, i fully understand that if things are not meant to be, no matter how close you are in getting it, you will still not get it. Oh well, Allah swt knows what's best for us so i believe we shouldn't worry too much. We are all safe in His plans. :)
These 6 months have been breathtaking and enriching. I've made so many friends, people from different backgrounds and personalities. I even befriended people i never thought i will be friends with.
Trainings were tough. BTM was crazy. Field and final exercises lived up to their reputation of being able to kill you. I went through every single thing.
I did.
But.... Maybe, it was all just not meant to be. It's okay, it's okay.
At least i went through it all. The experience is just ... priceless. Nothing beats it.
I thank God for allowing me to go through this. Even though the end product wasn't what i wanted, i'm still eternally grateful. The friends i met are enough to mask the feelings of disappointment and humiliation.
Thank You ALLAH SWT.
