In this superficial world, it's really hard to not feel insecure or unworthy because there are so many people who are better than you. You know what, i don't want to try anymore.
Trying already makes me depressed. Trying hard makes me hate myself. I don't want to feel this way anymore.
I was reading through fashion blogs and i came across this model named Daul Kim who committed suicide. (it's not the first, and definitely not the last)
The modelling world was just too cruel, and it slowly kills the essence of her life as a whole. She felt horrible and the pressure was just too overwhelming. Eventually, she lost the battle.
You know? It's like no matter how beautiful/pretty/rich/hot you are, there WILL always be someone better than you. It's a fact and we can't run away from reality.
So, if you think i'm not as good-looking as some other people, it's okay. If you think i'm not as efficient, it's okay. If you think i'm not as cool, it's okay. If you think my personality is not as awesome, it's okay. If you think i'm not as smart, it's okay. If you think i'm not as rich, it's okay. If you think i'm not as fun, it's okay. If you think i'm not as interesting, it's okay. If you think i'm not as fashionabe, it's okay. If you think other guys are more worthy, it's okay.
I don't care anymore. Somehow, saying it's okay gives me a sense of assurance. I want to stop comparing myself with others because it is fucking tiring. I just want to be comfortable in my own skin and live life as it is.
Oh c'mon, i deserve to be happy.
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