I've not talked to my sister for four months because of a huge quarrel that we had. And on saturday, while i was cruising around town with Z, i bumped into her. It was really a surprise(because i've never bumped into her in town) and i guess that was God's will. I decided to just say Hi. Her hands were full of shopping bags, apparently it was for her wedding. We talked for a few moments and i noticed that she looked sad. Her face wasn't glowing like before.
"You're alone?". I questioned.
"Yeah. I've been doing this all the time. Used to it."
My heart shattered for a moment. My sister doesn't really have much friends because of her busy schedule. She's often flying and that in itself doesn't warrant her much time to socialise. Furthermore, her fiance's often overseas. Hence, when she's home and she needs to get stuffs/shop/anything, she will always ask me along. I'm always at her beck and call. I felt that i needed to be there for her because i love her. We're not close to the other family members and so, we only have each other. We tell each other our life's stories, something which we never disclose to the others(not even my parents).
I hope that surprise meeting helps us to get closer again. See, it happens for a reason. Without that, i bet the silent treatment would persist till one of us gives in(which would never happen cos we have a huge ego).
I miss you sis ): (although i would never tell you this)
ALOHA BESTIE.
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I seek comfort in knowing that we are in fact, completely different individuals leading extremely different lifestyles, but similar in that we have sets of problems that seem, trivial or non-existent to the world.
Sometimes I feel... lonely because I am losing friends as I dont enjoy socializing as much, and I am pretty much less interesting and less enjoyable to be arnd. It feels empty that I fight in this race with others, trying to be better in everyway. But i come to a pt where I come to terms with myself, that with God, and with the person I am, I am able to surmount all of these seemingly unsurmountable circumstances. And I am sure, you are able to do that too. With your family, with your officers, with your friends, with your insecurity issues, with everything under the sun. (:
ok...lets do away with the seriousness...
MISSING YOU YO! WHERE ARE OUR KARAOKE SESSION PHOTOS??!?! POST THEM ASAP!!!!
Theres boxing day sales tmr and apparently it is crazy... 70-80% on perfectly new season clothes. AWESOME. Will do my best to rmber you HAHAHHAHAHA. KIDDING. GET ME HAIR ACCESSORIES IN THAI! ^^
WAKEBOARDING WHEN IM BACK (: Anw, your blog sucks ttm srsly... I always fgt to sign in as well and have to like type twice or thrice?!?! Grrr.......... hahahha adios amigo!
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Anyway in retrospect, despite the many friends that i have, i get lonely too. I feel you. The whole i-must-be-better-than-you syndrome is totally within me as well. It's happening everywhere, with or without a wide social network. And yes i agree with you that to overcome this barrier erected in our mind, we got to come to terms with our UNIQUE self. It's so tiring to compare ourselves with others all the time - i do this almost every clubbing night i tell you. IT sucks. And, exhausting till it numbs then i simply give up. But, we gotta deal with this. We're strong, bestie. I love you. XOXOXO.
I didn't go to thai cos it was totally unplanned and we gave it a miss eventually. WHEN ARE YOU COMING BACK?
ANDDD I procrastinated in posting up the photos cos i look horrible. HAHAHAAHAHA