I am very depressed and i feel like crying. I feel so inefficent and useless. I don't think i'm even needed here. I'm simply dispensable.
Sometimes i wonder if there's actually a God because i do mutter alot of prayers ALOT of times but things STILL don't work out. If praying doesn't help, then what helps? It's like i pray for this particular thing not to happen but somehow, it eventually happened. SO MUCH for praying HUH.
Yes yes, you can rebut me with those crap sayings like, "Oh well, who knows if you didn't pray, it might have gotten worse".
Oh well, whateverrrrrrrrr. My faith is waning and i'm lost. I give up.
NOOOO.... the BIG GUY up there is ultra cool, because He only gives you what you can take. And if all prayers 'work' just because you've prayed, there won't be any famines, poverty, and death. Take your time, He hears all your prayers, but in His time. He knows what is best for us, our timing might not be in accordance to His, because we mostly request for instant gratification, while He looks long term (:
ReplyDeleteIn addition to that, He lets you go 1m down the cliff making you think that you're gonna fall all the way down and DIE. BUT, He will pull you up 10m later, because He will save you, and give you better after you've gone thru what is needed to refine and mould you to be a better person (in this case, it is trials and tribulation). So, take the step of faith bestie, don't lose hope, He is ALWAYS there. (:
aww bestie that was really sweet and heartwarming. :) I love the part about how he lets us fall 1m down while pick us 10m up. Awwww.
ReplyDeleteI don't know bestie. I'm in a phase where i don't know exactly who i'm holding to. I'm just floating around aimlessly, looking for directions to lead me through.
I hope i won't get lost.