Fuck this world and every single shit here like fuck everything and everything i want to die but i don't want to mutilate myself because it's painful.

really hate this.

am sick and tired of the whirlpool of emotions which are making a turmoil within, and these fuckshits can only be relieved by psychotic 'motivational' and 'positive affirmations' which seem to backfire every single time.

maybe i shouldn't even be psychoing myself. it's just too tiring and i'm dead exhausted.


maybe i don't deserve to live.

am sick and tired.

sick and tired of feeling this way every single day.

this shithole needs to be deeper so that i can't see the light. the light's too bright and it's not helping even though it's supposed to. it's just clouding any possible ray of hope because it's just too bright. just.way.too.bright.

i cannot do this anymore.

i thought i could, but i'm lying to myself.

i want to cry.

i want to die.

bye.