and i don't think it's necessary to write because no one understands anyway. i only write in extreme unstable terrains(and no, it's not as though that is not the situation.) writing makes me feel really free like a jump into the deep sea of calmness and tranquility, or a plunge driven by gravity from a high mountain. but i just feel that i don't want to sound like an emotional wreck everytime i write because that is just downright pathetic.
thus, i bottle everything inside and let it explode within, without giving it any light to repel the blooming darkness. i don't feel comfortable talking to people about my problems, because i know they would judge or simply don't care(although they proclaim they do). i know it's definitely better to talk about it, and i'll actually find comfort in naming my feelings instead of leaving the mess spinning inside.
and i'm really lucky to be blessed with Lin Mingmin, the ONLY person whom i'd tell EVERYTHING to. DEFINITELY the bestest best friend one could ever have. i really, REALLY, thank God for her because she is literally my backbone, and i'd tell her EVERY single thought/feeling i have at that VERY moment because i know she won't judge, and she'd still love me all the same. i don't have this deep-rooted anxiety or never-ending fear with her AT ALL which is really comforting because admittedly, i do feel that way to many of my good friends or other best friends. Without Ming, i'd literally crumble and degenerate into specks of dust.
you've done ALOT and saved me, and i'm truly grateful for that. love you till the end of time.
xoxoxoxx
AWWW BESTIE!!!!!
ReplyDeleteThat was the.... sweetest msg everrrrrr and im gg to save it in my comp and also in the very core of my heart.
You deserve EVERY second of my time, simply because you are WORTH it. you might think that you're worth nothing, you're ugly, you're flawed, you're everything I think you're not, but that doesnt change a thing about how I love you for who you are. And so, I will only give you the best of the best, and wish the best for you.
Don't worry, cos someone else will love you more than me one day, and that person will stick w you for life. That'll be your soul mate (: Pss.. next time when we buy houses must make sure we stay as near as we are now!! Be it gay or straight, we must stay close (:
Bestfriends for life!