hey

i told myself i would never give in, i would fight. i'd give all i have.

but now, i'm running back to the same old cave, with boulders that smell of familiarity and comfort. how ironic.

i would continue to fight, i...will......try....

i have so much things to say, but i don't know where to start. this site seems to be a ranting ground, a safety net or a haven, somehow. i'd come back when i feel defeated. i've lost alot these few weeks but i refused to come back here because i don't want to admit it. i don't want to officially acknowledge my loss. i'm not a loser. i hate to lose.

i want to get out of my soul(if that's remotely possible). i need to let go