boo

i don't know why but my head hurts so much it feels as though a bodybuilder just whacked it so hard. okay, i'm exaggerating. but it normally hurts this much when i have a million and one thoughts popping into my head and it is not even fucking funny.

i'm done with NS. there were moments(so many, in fact) when i told myself how much i fucking hate it, how much i can't wait to be done with it, and how i will never ever miss it. i guess i spoke too soon.

I MISS NS ALREADY :(

i seriously feel that NS has been SUCH an epic phase in my life. God knows what i went through- the emotional rollercoaster rides(that are just too much to handle), the burgeoning stress, the soaring and escalating expectations, the OC, breakouts, NSPAM, TMS, never-ending MCs, friends, quarrels with friends, ''i'm so done with him, he's OUT OF MY LIFE'', betrayals, backstabbing, break-ups, cries, tears......

i don't even know where to begin(or end for that matter). the friends i've made are beyond awesome; they've made life in FFTC(Fire-Fighting Training Centre) so so so much more bearable. i've never really had many guy friends prior to NS, because i've felt that i can't click with them(oh man this sounds weird). but NS has blessed me with many of those, who are genuine and sincere - brothers whom you know you can count/depend on.

aww this is so sad. i don't ever wanna grow up. this always happens, a chapter closes just when it's about to finally begin. sigh